I am one of those people that needs change regularly. Is that strange? Maybe it's because I get bored or I am never satisfied.
Don't get me wrong, I love the life I live, but lately I feel like something is missing. I love my job, but this year it doesn't seem like I am my happy, smiley self. I love my home, but I constantly find myself browsing homes.com in towns closer to my best friend, or closer to Cody's job. I haven't even had my car two years and I am constantly searching for a different car. And every month I'm thinking of a new hair color or cut! I seriously think I just get bored!
We bought our house two years ago because it was convenient to both of our jobs. Everyone in our town was born and raised here. I guess, sometimes I feel like we are outsiders because we haven't been here our whole lives. It is a total shocker that I even got hired in the school district because I am one of the few that didn't graduate from here. Homecoming was last weekend and everyone was making plans to attend, and Cody and I had no desire to go. And we have no desire to go to either of our high school's homecomings or football games.
I guess this place just doesn't feel like home. If only I could pick our little house up and move it...Cody just started a new job working all over the metroplex and I am a teacher so we could easily pick up and move. All of our closest friends are in or around Stephenville. I really think that is where I want to be. But, then again maybe not and then I would be right back to square one!
We don't have children yet, and I really just want to find a place that feels like home.
I just thought I would vent or ramble a bit or see if composing my thoughts would make me feel better, but it really hasn't helped at all. I think it has just made it worse.
Now back to Pintrest and Desperate Housewives season premiere....now that makes me happy. : )
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